Saturday, November 6, 2010

Saying GoodBye...


Its never been so easy to say GOODBYE forever...
I always have fear of loosing people...
I really feel that people are there in my life with a meaning ...They hold some position
which cant be replaced...

Yesterday I said goodbye to someone...
Forever and ever..

It was not so easy and still m not able to decide whether it is good or bad...
But somewhere I know Whatever decision is taken was by a person who thinks better for me...
And I have no regrets..
Atleast I got lesson to learn that you never get each and everything in your life..
sometimes you have to think for others...
Sometimes you get chance to live for others..and sometimes you loose everything but still you are stable state of mind...
its not so easy to forget someone just like that...but it is not so difficult also...


Thodasa dard thodisi khalish..
din chaar bas dard ke
aage bas kisi ke naam ki gujarish reh jati hai...

I believe
Some decisions are good..they have to be..because they r constructed by someone who knows you more than you do...

Tuesday, September 14, 2010


Today...
I learnt new lesson..
Some people are so damn mean..
They can go to any extent to make things happen for them...
They can praise you more and more..
They can even make you feel that you are the only one who can do the things for them..
When all the things are done..
They forget you..and things what you have done..


I met someone similar to above description..
When he was in need...we were in contact by all means of communication...
mails..msgs..phonecalls...chats..each and everything...

Now some big things are happening in his life...he didnt even bothered to convey it..
Well I know I should understand that someone may have some restrictions..some problems..
But I cant understand every time...


Y do people behave like this??
Well max thing I can do is...I m taking this
as learning for me..

Tuesday, August 24, 2010

What exactly...??




I m now habituated to my state of mind...
I always keep confusing myself..
I dont understand was that a mistake to trust someone....?
After knowing all things just because someone made me trust him...was that a mistake???
Should I expect atleast courtesies from him....???
why people Lie...
Why they need to control others life...?
Why the mess up things...and when they go away...why dont they take their memories....

At least person who is left behind wont be hurt...wont think about past...

Why people ask to wait and never turn up...?
If they really dont want to come back.....why dont they keep things direct.......?

Why love always hurts.............?


Was that really a mistake???
And what after this should I trust someone else...
Why I mess everything...

Lots of questions and no answer...

Friday, August 6, 2010

Some people...Who helped me becoming ME...


Today i have end up with my JAVA core course...
I have been visited Rajesh Patkar institute for this.
Rajesh sir is one of the people who shaped my life...
He didnt only taught me Java but spiritual thinking..Understanding,Problem solving and also How to think about anything...
A man with extreme energy and knowledge.
Hats off..


My mother....
She is yet another person of my life...
Im all here because of her.
I want to be like her....Her replica...Ditto....
Because of her profession or may be she is very good communicator
She understands and teaches every minute details of every single thing that we didnt even notice...
Not just because she is my mother ...Because all other people admire her capabilities of being herself (She is STAR of my family)....I found her a very nice human being...
We do not share a healthy mother and daughter relation...she does not have enough time and also m elder daughter so it might be taken for granted......
I dont remember that when was the last time she pampered me...
But Besides all of these reasons...She has stood for me...
Now When m maturing I understand that how difficult is being a mother a wife and professional..



Kanchan...
I met her in my graduation college...with thick spects, completely studious girl...
We became part of one group...
I never heard a word "NO" from her side...
She is very simple very down to earth and yet very dearest girl...
She has kid like heart....very clear......
She is completely adorable girl in my life...
I never seen her depressed..or crying...
There is no word called sad in her dictionary
The best buddy i have ever got...


Indira sant
Though I have read just a book of her "MRUDGANDH"...
she wrote a simplest things in day to day life...
The book is about very normal incidents that happens to everyone's life.
But noone could think of finding the beauty of it...Noone tries to figure out life will be tasteless of these things r not present..
She has even mentioned her bad patch but we never realize while reading that she has gone through so much while reading this book..
She never tried to sell her sorrows...



My brothers
My elder brother
Akshay da
He is best person...
Im what Im today just because he made me feel that even im capable to do something...
He is mentor..
He is best buddy one could have...

My younger brother
Tanay
I am elder to him...and thats why thankful to him...
Just coz of him I have got chance of being elder...
He is my best friend...
Though we dont get time to chit chat because of our schedules...
We share very nice relation...
We are best buddies of each others




Wednesday, August 4, 2010

I have all reasons to be happy...But smile left me...


How does it feel when you have done nothing wrong but still you are punished for that??
You have to go through all the pain and heartburning feeling...
Some months ago I met a person..
Who changed my life from root..
He made me think mature..
I am so thankful to him that he is a reason to make me change my behaving style..My frame of mind..
And of course made me think more serious toward my life...
He is not here now...lost somewhere in this world...
He is not in my life...Its not actually "NOT IN MY LIFE"...he is still there but in invisible state..Just like we have it in YM or Gtalk...:).....
I feel alone when he is not around..

I always used to think Loving someone means being with someone..roaming around..chit chatting........
but
when we are not together still I feel he is very close to me.
Directing me at every stage..
Its just when I achieve something I cant tell him...
I wish I could see him smiling..
I wish I could take away all his worries...

Now I am realizing how deeply I am in love with him...
and Its a wonderful feeling in this whole world...
I m not able to tell him...This three magical words...

Just my smile has left me...Its with him...........

But Im smiling...because I cant tell anyone how much it hurts me...
The heart burning feeling that I have inside is killing me...
This is the cost Im paying for loving someone......

Friday, July 16, 2010


Its in female version....but doesn't matter I feel same for u................Grammatical mistakes r there but...its from heart....


थोडीशी थांब बघतर मागे वळून
कुठेपर्यंत आलो आहे मी
तुझ्या सोबत तुझ्या नकळत
थोडीशी थांब बघतर जरा
हे डोळे फक्त तुझीच वाट बघत आहे रात्रदिवस
थकलेत् ग ते
त्याना एकदा अलगद तुझ्या ओठानी पुसून तर जा जरा
थोडीशी थांब बघतर जरा

तुझ्या नसन्याने तुझ्या असण्याचे महत्व कळला आहे मला
तुझ असण पुन्हा एकदा देऊन तर जा जरा
थोडीशी थांब बघतर जरा

तुझ काम, तुझ घर, तुझे मित्र, तुझ विश्व
सगळ सगळ मान्य मला
पण इथे कुणीतरी तुझ्यासाठी एक जग उभ केलय
ते बघून तर जा जरा
थोडीशी थांब बघतर जरा

हा चंद्र सुद्धा हसतो मला
म्हणतो, ज्याला तू आमच्यात शोधत असतोस रात्र रात्र
तीही तुझ्यासाठी झुरतेय का अशीच
त्या चंद्राला उत्तर देऊन तर जा जरा
थोडीशी थांब बघतर जरा

आठवण तुलाही येते माझी
पापणी तुझी ही ओलवते अश्रूनी
त्या अश्रूना माझ्या ओंज़ळीत देवून तर जा जरा
थोडीशी थांब बघतर जरा

तुझ हसण तुझ बोलण
तुझा राग तुझ गप्प राहण
घेऊन गेलीस तुझ्याबरोबर तू सर्व
ज़गण्यासाठी तेवढेच आहे ग माझ्याकडे
माझ जगण देऊन तर ज़ा जरा...
थोडीशी थांब बघतर जरा

माझ्या ज़वळ थोड़ी बसतर जरा
माझा सहवास, माझा श्वास, माझी सोबत
अनुभव तर जरा
थोडीशी थांब बघतर जरा

प्ग मात म्हणे न सांगता न बोलता
सर्व काही कळत
मग न सांगता न बोलता
मला समजून तर घे जरा
थोडीशी थांब बघतर जरा

तुझ्यात स्वत:लाच हरवून
बसलो मी कुठेतरी
जरा येऊन मला माझेपन
शोधून तर दे जरा
थोडीशी थांब बघतर जरा

माझ्या दिवसात, माझ्या रात्रीत
माझ्या प्रत्येक क्षणात तू आहेस
व्यापून टाकल आहेस तू मला
माझा एक एक क्षण
मला परत देऊन तर जा जरा
थोडीशी थांब बघतर जरा

एकदा, फक्त एकदाच माझ्या मनात डोकवून तर जा
स्वता:लाच बघितल्यावर कस वाटत
ते सांगून तर जा जरा...
थोडीशी थांब बघतर जरा

अळुवा वरच्या थेंबासारखा आहे ग हे आयुष्य... क्षणभंगुर
कुणी ते पाण हलवण्या आधी आणि तो इवलसा थेंब कुठेतरी लुप्त होण्याआधी
एकदा प्रेम करुन तर जा जरा...
शेवटची थोडीशी थांब
कसलीही अपेक्षा नाही... की कासलही बंध नकोत
प्रेम केल आहे तुझ्यावर... त्यात कसले व्यवहार नकोत
भावनाच फक्त कळतात ग मला
त्याचा पलिकडचे काहीही नको
एकदा त्या भावनाना स्पर्शून तर जा जरा
थोडीशी थांब बघतर जरा

ह्या वेड्याला थोडस शहाणपण शिकवून तर जा जरा.
थोडीशी थांब बघतर जरा

Monday, May 3, 2010


maza avadta kavi Saumitra urf Kishor kadam....
yachya kahi kavita jya mala majhya manachya far javalchya vattat....

एखाद्या पावसाळी दुपारी ...



एखाद्या पावसाळी दुपारी, मी तुला घेऊन एखाद्या क्राऊडेड रेस्टॉरंट मध्ये शिरतो,
तेंव्हा तुझं हात माझ्या हातांमध्येच असतो,
खाली मान घालून तू गर्दी मधून चालत असतेस, तशीच माझ्यासोबत एका टेबलाशी बसते,
सगळी गर्दी तुझ्याकडेच अनिनिश नेत्रांनी पाहत असते,
मी ही फक्त तुझ्याकडेच, फक्त तुझ्याकडेच पाहत असतो,
तुझ्याशीच बोलत असतो, तेव्हा आजूबाजूची गर्दी नसते, आपण दोघेच असतो,
अशासाठी कधीतरी एका पावसाळ्यात, एका दुपारी, सहज सोपं बोलत-बोलत तुडुंब गर्दीत माझ्यासोबत जेवायला तू येशील का ?

अशाच पावसात अर्धा भिजत, मी तुला सांभाळत-सांभाळत नेत असतो, एखाद्या अनोळखी शहराच्या रस्त्यावरून,
तू सावध चालत असतेस थोडी जवळ - थोडी दुरून,
आणि अचानक तू माझ्या हातातली छत्री घेतेस, मिटून टाकतेस, टाकूनच देतेस,
मग माझं हात हातात घेऊन, रस्त्यात साचलेल्या पाण्यातून तू पाणी उडवत चालू लागतेस,
कडेकडेने वळचणीला उभे असलेले लोक, माझा प्रचंड हेवा करत पाहत असतात,
आणि मी मात्र तू छत्री मिटलीस दूर टाकून दिलीस, अशा पावसात माझ्यासोबत चक्क चिंब भिजत चाललीस म्हणून रस्त्यात साचल्या डबक्यावरून एखाद्या सुफी संतासारखा न बुडता चालत जातो, हरखून तुझ्याकडेच पाहत राहतो,
अशासाठी कधीतरी पावसाळ्यात एका दुपारी माझ्यासोबत अनोळखी शहरात भिजत चिंब दुसऱ्या प्रहरात चालत जायला येशील का ?

अशाच पावसाळी एका संध्याकाळी, समुद्रकिनारी ढगांमागे कुठेतरी,
सूर्यबिंब भिजत चिंब बुडत असताना, समुद्राची गाज दोघांवरून पार होताना,
माझं झालं-गेलं उगाच मला आठवताना, गल्वरून माझे अश्रू पावसात मिसळून वाहताना,
तुझ्याकडे अशात पहाण्याच मी मुद्दाम टाळताना,
नकळत मी तुझा हात हातात घेतल्यावर, हळूच तू माझ्यकडे मान वळवून पाहिल्यावर,
माझ्या गालावरच पाऊस आणि अश्रू तुला वेगवेगळे निथळताना दिसल्यावर,
अश्रू पुसायला तू माझ्या गालांशी हात न्यावा, आणि तुझ्या बोटांत फक्त पाऊसच येत रहावा,
आणि तू खळखळून हसत माझ्या हि नकळत माझ्या मिठीत शिरावी,
आपण दोघे घट्ट बिलगत गाजेमधून विरत विरत किनाऱ्यावर फक्त हुरहूर उरावी,
अशासाठी पावासाळी कुठल्या तरी संध्याकाळी उधान भरती आल्यावर हुरहूर होऊन समुद्रावर जायला येशील का ?
दाट काळोख होशील का ?
तुझा चेहरा माझ्या सोबत काळोखाला देशील का ?


सारं आठवतय..........




सारं आठवतय

आपलं ते हॉटेलात जाण
तुझा हात माझ्या हातात घट्ट असण
लोकांनी आपल्या कडे पाहणं
तुझं लक्ष मात्र माझ्याकडे असण
cold drink पीता पीता
मला ठसका लागणं
"वर बघ" म्हणून तुझं
माझ्या पाठीवरून हात फिरवण
सारं आठवतय

आपण फिरत असताना
पावसाचही आपल्या भेटीला येणं
छत्री उघडत असताना
तू ती उघडू न देण
जाऊया ना भीझत असं तुझं सांगण
भिजत जात असताना
वळणाचा फायदा घेत तुझ्या
डोळ्यांनी माझ्या कडे काही तरी मागणं
"रस्त्यात" तुला माझं ते गमतीनं विचारण
तुझं तेव्हा मला बावळट बोलण
सारं आठवतय

आपल्या नेहमीच्या बाकावर बसणं
तिथे खांद्यवर डोकं ठेवून तुझं
"देशील ना मला साथ म्हणून"
नेहमी डोळ्यात पाणी आणून विचारणं
सारं आठवतय

असच सगळं अलबेल चालू असताना
तू मला भेटायला बोलावणं
हातात मेहंदी डाव्या हातात अंगठी
पाहून सगळं मला समजणं
तरीही मी तुला विचारणं
त्यावर जा मला विसरून म्हणून
तुझं ताडकन निघून जाणं
सारं आठवतय

तू जात असताना
माझं तुला डोळे भरून पाहणं
त्या मध्येही डोळ्यात पाणी येणं
तुझं साधं मागे वळूनही न पाहणं
सारं आठवतय
सारं आठवतय................

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Some thoughts by me....


आताच या कविता वाचताना मी पुन्हा माझ्या आठवणीना बिलगले आहे..
एका वेड्या क्षणी जेव्हा मी हे सगळं अनुभवत होते तेव्हाचा हळवेपणा पुन्हा माझ्या उरात दाटला आहे..
आणि आज पुन्हा मी प्रेमात पडले आहे...
फक्त तुझ्याच...
माझं हळवेपण जपणारा तू
"नेहमीचा तू" आज खूप जवळचा वाटतोयस..
मनाने नादिष्ट असणं कधी कधी खुप सुखाचं असतं...
नाही?......................................

Friday, April 30, 2010


Its MAHARASHTRA DIN today....
Its all over about Maharashtra and its pride, assets, and all the things that have brought maharashtra all together a "MAHA - Rashtra"..
Like being marathi,Marathi food, Marathi scientists, Marathi books, authors, And specially Marathi Movies...

Movies are my weak point..As being a daughter of intellectual couple,My parents always encouraged me to watch sensible movies, and share the view and what are the plus and minus points..
As being a part of a mixed Marathi Society, (coz my mother, my grand ma, my father , my aunt all are all together from different culture and roots) I have came across different people and their lifestyle.

In todays Most of Marathi movies I have not seen any professionalism that is there in Hollywood or Bollywood industry. But its a good sign that some Marathi movies are sensible and also enjoyable without having any headache.(Valu, Ek daav dhobipachaad etc)
Some Marathi movies are really good in technologies sound effects screenplay dialog etc
But I have to say it very sadly that they are not so appealing.
There are plenty of movies that are made for the audience which has lowered their choices.Its not their fault Its about the knowledge and way of thinking.
This audience have never came across the intellectuality they obviously like melodramatic scenes, Vamps , Hero heroins.
Some good actors are moving to this industry because these movies are all time hit in village
Just because an actors have a big hit once upon a time Producers are allowing them to act them same.They never try to change the image.
(For eg: Bharat Jadhav was really good in first two movies and now in each and every movie he acts the same.Which cause irritation nothing else)
The technical Background of most Marathi movie is very poor.Locations, Sound effects are below average.
Script is like some pieces of stories are cultivated together to for a good but turned into hazardous story.
It is mostly like old wine in new bottle
I have attended one seminar on directorial skills but it was actually promotion of a Marathi Movie named Jogwa.
The producer and director were complaining about how the movie is very good but there is no response, No funding, No advertisements..It was all about how everyone is acting very bad to his movie. They have some question answer session where they replied every question negatively and how they struggled to come to this place.
I seriously doubt about their intension.


In opposite sense,
there are few good movies to talk about.
Some movies are really good in screen plays.
I have seen Sanai Choughade(Produced bu Mukta arts)
It was actually in technical background.
Some movies like restaurant, Valu, SarkarNama, Vihir, Natrang are technically gr8
Nice scripts which actually make any one to think.
The cast was real good and appropriate and compatible to script to each other, Directorial skills are good,
Marketing for them was really effective.
and they made it on box office.
Movies like Mi Shivajiraje bhosale boltoy and shikshana chya aai cha gho are technically good.but
scripts were too mediocre. Casting was OK.



I think movies are made for entertainment
when a person is in state of mind to think and understand he can digest heavy subjects .
Most of people come to watch movie for relaxing their mind..
Some sensible movies make sense but idiotic movies irritates and provokes people think that it is waste of money
If the same thing happens obviously nobody will try to check new movies,
I personally feel Marketing funda is not yet adopted.



Some good actresses and actors are there in marathi like smita patil nana patekar amruta subhash, renuka shahane, Pallavi joshi etc
But most of people are average looking..When we dream about a superman he is always in superman costume not in general shorts
Its our mentality
The point is looks wise marathi actors are very average...One can not assume them as superman and is they try to be they do not gel well with the super man image.
They are good in middleclass image..
I might be wrong.
But I can not accept Bharat Jadhav or Makarand Anaspure or Siddharth Jadhav as Industrialist, Business tycoons.

Some actresses are good looking but they actually lack in acting skills.
Like Sai tamhankar, Kranti Redkar etc.

real good looking and sensible actress i have found just few.Like smita patil, Amruta subhash, urmila kanertkar etc.

Still I have got a feeling that movies like Harishchandrachi factory, Shwas, Zenda,Sawarkhed ek gaav are improving the face of marathi film industry.
Marathi film industry was established by Dadasaheb falke and few good directors are cultivating that culture and growing the marathi film industry is actually good sign..








Saturday, April 24, 2010




















Its all about
AJMAL AMIR KASAB..........


Sale ki takdir achchi hai ki Indian court me uska matter chal raha hai..............


its been 1 and half years ...What the hell is happening..........???
The court, Lawyers and government is still discussing about what he had done........
Isnt there anything to discuss about???

at least for the matter of fact.. he should be sued for violence in public area..carrying gun and exploits..and murdering a police havaldar (TUAKARAM OMBALE)...
what is furthermore to discuss about????????

He is still ALIVE.....
The person who had terrified whole country is still alive!!!!!!!!!!
What a awfull situation..........
what a shame......


People protested against the 26th november....Lit the candles on 26th nov 2009
where are those who have done it......?
Dont u think this is disgusting thing........

That all was just a SHOW OFF
Like anybody doesnt care now............




The funniest part I read.....



Lawyer Saiyyad gulam abbas kazmi....(An Indian trial court removed the lawyer for the suspect in last year's Mumbai terror attacks, saying he was not cooperating with the court...Abbas Kazmi, the state-appointed lawyer for Mohammed Ajmal Amir Kasab, was removed by Special Judge M.L.Tahilyani)...

Lawyer Abbas Kazmi today moved a contempt petition in the High Court against 26/11 trial judge M L Tahaliyani, who had sacked him as terrorist Ajmal Kasab’s defence counsel on charges of non-cooperation and purposely delaying the trial.
Kazmi has urged the High Court to take suo motu cognisance and action against Tahaliyani under section 15(1) of the Contempt of Court Act....

Isnt it funny.............

Its said in marathi........



CHOR SODUN SANYASHALA FASHI......

Its something New I found about male human mind set..
I have lots of friend and I talk to them freely and equally.......

But few friends are there who are more than a friend......I talked to them more openly.......
I gained a knowledge that if a girl talks to them just saying just Hi Hello and how are you...and answers them just what they have asked ....that girl becomes "ATTITUDE PROBLEM & RUDE"...
If a girl is talking to them frankly and openly then she is "OPEN AND EASILY AVAILABLE"...

Sad isnt it??????????????????

Friday, April 23, 2010















Hellloooo......


Today is a new day of my life ....
Its 9.17 am
I have started writing blog from today ....

In the morning I have read about the IPL and Lalit Modi....
Its the darker side of Indian Politics....
I wrote a letter to IPL chairman through WWW.iplt20.com website saying...

"As a sensible Indian I condemn the obnoxious display of wealth and extravaganza of IPL. Stop doping the Indian psyche with this TAMASHA of cricket. Lalit Modi and Sharad Pawar and his quartet be brought to the books for the financial anomalies. We hate IPL. "

The Indian Government is all responsible..
Recently read from 1st may our government will be collecting tax ammount from BCCI for IPL matches...
What are we????
Dumb and deaf people ...?

I feel pitty..I feel sick about the Indian government and politicians...