What exactly...??

I m now habituated to my state of mind...

I always keep confusing myself..

I dont understand was that a mistake to trust someone....?

After knowing all things just because someone made me trust him...was that a mistake???

Should I expect atleast courtesies from him....???

why people Lie...

Why they need to control others life...?

Why the mess up things...and when they go away...why dont they take their memories....

At least person who is left behind wont be hurt...wont think about past...

Why people ask to wait and never turn up...?

If they really dont want to come back.....why dont they keep things direct.......?

Why love always hurts.............?

Was that really a mistake???

And what after this should I trust someone else...

Why I mess everything...

Lots of questions and no answer...

Some people...Who helped me becoming ME...

Today i have end up with my JAVA core course...

I have been visited Rajesh Patkar institute for this.

Rajesh sir is one of the people who shaped my life...

He didnt only taught me Java but spiritual thinking..Understanding,Problem solving and also How to think about anything...

A man with extreme energy and knowledge.

Hats off..

My mother....

She is yet another person of my life...

Im all here because of her.

I want to be like her....Her replica...Ditto....

Because of her profession or may be she is very good communicator

She understands and teaches every minute details of every single thing that we didnt even notice...

Not just because she is my mother ...Because all other people admire her capabilities of being herself (She is STAR of my family)....I found her a very nice human being...

We do not share a healthy mother and daughter relation...she does not have enough time and also m elder daughter so it might be taken for granted......

I dont remember that when was the last time she pampered me...

But Besides all of these reasons...She has stood for me...

Now When m maturing I understand that how difficult is being a mother a wife and professional..

Kanchan...

I met her in my graduation college...with thick spects, completely studious girl...

We became part of one group...

I never heard a word "NO" from her side...

She is very simple very down to earth and yet very dearest girl...

She has kid like heart....very clear......

She is completely adorable girl in my life...

I never seen her depressed..or crying...

There is no word called sad in her dictionary

The best buddy i have ever got...

Indira sant

Though I have read just a book of her "MRUDGANDH"...

she wrote a simplest things in day to day life...

The book is about very normal incidents that happens to everyone's life.

But noone could think of finding the beauty of it...Noone tries to figure out life will be tasteless of these things r not present..

She has even mentioned her bad patch but we never realize while reading that she has gone through so much while reading this book..

She never tried to sell her sorrows...

My brothers

My elder brother

Akshay da

He is best person...

Im what Im today just because he made me feel that even im capable to do something...

He is mentor..

He is best buddy one could have...

My younger brother

Tanay

I am elder to him...and thats why thankful to him...

Just coz of him I have got chance of being elder...

He is my best friend...

Though we dont get time to chit chat because of our schedules...

We share very nice relation...

We are best buddies of each others

I have all reasons to be happy...But smile left me...

How does it feel when you have done nothing wrong but still you are punished for that??

You have to go through all the pain and heartburning feeling...

Some months ago I met a person..

Who changed my life from root..

He made me think mature..

I am so thankful to him that he is a reason to make me change my behaving style..My frame of mind..

And of course made me think more serious toward my life...

He is not here now...lost somewhere in this world...

He is not in my life...Its not actually "NOT IN MY LIFE"...he is still there but in invisible state..Just like we have it in YM or Gtalk...:).....

I feel alone when he is not around..

I always used to think Loving someone means being with someone..roaming around..chit chatting........

but

when we are not together still I feel he is very close to me.

Directing me at every stage..

Its just when I achieve something I cant tell him...

I wish I could see him smiling..

I wish I could take away all his worries...

Now I am realizing how deeply I am in love with him...

and Its a wonderful feeling in this whole world...

I m not able to tell him...This three magical words...

Just my smile has left me...Its with him...........

But Im smiling...because I cant tell anyone how much it hurts me...

The heart burning feeling that I have inside is killing me...

This is the cost Im paying for loving someone......